Oh shit. I'm hitting the big Three-Oh. I started this journal at 16 and I am beginning at Three-Oh all again. 2016 was the most terrifying year of my life. The thing with madness is that you don't realise you are, or who you are, or why you are. All you are is untethered. Thread by thread.
We made a long and slow love. A wind came up and the windows trembled slightly, the sugar set fragilely ajar by the wind. I liked Pauline's body and she said that she liked mine, too, and we couldn't think of anything to say. The wind suddenly stopped and Pauline said, 'What's that?' 'It's the wind.'