Anorexic Appearance ( Read more... )

Do they just not know because they're too stupid to figure it out, to put all the pieces together and get the idea? Or do they just not know because I'm wayy to good Of a lier + mastermind + manipulator?(The list goes On ( Read more... )

This is Hilarious ( Read more... )

I weighed myself at lunch today and... 94 lbs! I'm guessing I weigh a bit less cause I had drinken water and I did have clothes on, so I'm not too unhappy about it . I'm actually not unhappy at all... okay fine a bit, but atleast I'm getting further away from 100- the number I totally dread and freak out about. I have only 8 more lbs to lose in ( Read more... )

Here's what I let myself eat today thinking I'd be able to get a full hour workout at the gym.. it's terrible!

Breakfast:

Apple Cinnamon Oatmeal: 130
1/2 carrot muffin: 90

Lunch:

1/2 tuna sandwich: 150
black beans w/ onion and tomato: 180

Dinner: B/P

Fettucine Alfredo w/ Broccoli and Chicken.. YUM: (Purged it)

Total Calories: 550

Calories Burned: ( Read more... )

It scares me sometimes that I can lie and hide things so well, but I guess that's what Eating Disorders give us- "personalities" and "gifts". I'm getting better and better at hiding and lying about my eaten food that I feel real guilty about, but It doesn't stop me from getting where I'm determined to get. It's amazing how easily my parents are ( Read more... )

"Deep Inside ( Read more... )

Sitting In Geography Class today all sad, then this really thin girl who I've been jealous of since school started, gives me some lovely compliments.. along with my friend ( Read more... )

PERFECT!!! Now mom is getting suspicious about me "eating" downstairs all the time. I think she knows I hide my food.. >.< This makes my plan to lose weight, even harder!! I can pull through it though, hopefully get my trust back with my lies and sappy little stories. It always works. =)

I've finally taken into consideration that by starving and b/ping and not having anything calorie-wise, I'm messing up my metabolism which will make me lose weight faster.. definatly not what I want! So I've decided that I'll have 208 calories a day from now on , Exercising as much as I can to burn off the calories I've consumed. The foods must be ( Read more... )