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tarot reading
I gave myself a tarot reading on what would, generally, occur in my love life in the next 6 months. It was uncomfortably accurate in terms of the past, present and bottom advice cards.
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The catalyst of it all.
So...he and I talked on the phone Saturday night. I told him everything that was going on with me. I told him I loved him, and that I was jealous of certain people in his life, and that I wasn't sure if I could even be friends with him anymore. He replied with "I don't know what to tell you, I'm not that way." So I asked him about the moment where ( Read more... ) -
Decision
So...some of you know this already. But I've made the decision to stay at UK for my Ph.D. It's been bothering me what I was gonna do for a few months now, and I finally made a certain decision last week.
I had been planning to fill out grad school applications starting last week, and i wanted to ask Rudy to write me letters of recommendation. Well, ( Read more... ) -
Signs?
OK. I'm awake at 2 in the morning for the fifth night in a row. Looks like it's blog time ( Read more... ) -
Career advancement, family friends, horror movies
So..I received a little bit of news yesterday that kind of excites me. I may be getting a research assistantship this Spring. I got an e-mail from Dr. Yoshida yesterday and she said that she'd like to fund me for the spring semester. This is not completely set in stone, but I'm interested, mainly because I need the experience. The thing that makes ( Read more... ) -
Faith, teaching, schedules, Louisville
All my non-religious friends, feel free to skip this part. I know you won't agree and that's fine.:
Every time I feel the hurt, the pain, the pure nausea that accompanies loneliness, I close my eyes and take a breath. As I inhale, I silently pray; I pray for a guidance, a sign, some mercy...something. Sometimes I feel like it gets heard and I feel ( Read more... ) -
What my problem is and what I plan on doing about it.
So....I've been feeling a lot better. I think the fact that some people basically made me come out of my shell helped a lot. However, I do need to bitch. Hey, it's what I do best.
For those who don't know, I've been having a crisis as of late, because I'm not sure where I need to be or even who I need to be, for that matter. It's a different feeling ( Read more... ) -
meh
I don't want to talk about this with you; I just want you to respond accordingly.
It's too hard being friends with you. I dunno why I feel this way but it feels like I have to force you to talk to me. I know you've told me to relax and that if you have a problem, you'll say so. And I should probably take you at your word. But...personally, what ( Read more... ) -
Meh
I've gotta stop drinking so much. It's making everything worse.
At least it led to a rather cathartic 4 page journal entry last night.
