Comments | pandalovin: i hate this.

pandalovin

i hate this.

Dec 27, 2005 20:00

i hate that i have to be her babysitter. i hate that i have to be her maid. i fucking hate dealing with her when she's healthy, im going fucking crazy dealing with her while she's recovering from major surgery. i hate that my xmas break is shot to hell because i have to take care of her. i am so frustrated, i dont know what to do. half the time i ( Read more... )

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cysteen6 December 27 2005, 21:18:33 UTC

Hello missy. First thing, DO NOT feel guilty about feeling this way towards her. I know how hard it has been for you in each of these ways and you are completely justified in your words. It is not fair that you have to spend your Christmas this way, and I hate seeing you have to do all of this and having to deal with the emptiness of Christmas without your grandparents all at the same time. Your mom is a grown woman, she needs to realize that she can't continue to guilt trip you and your brother and get away with it. One of these days you just aren't going to go back and she isn't going to understand. I have been thinking about you a lot during this break. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you. If I were in the same situation, under the same conditions, I would definitely feel the same way. I love you so much and miss you. When we all get back we will definitely talk about everything and have some mega Panda cheeringupage time. She will get better and you will get through it. Just try to stay sane in the meantime. I ( ... )

flyswatter December 27 2005, 23:50:45 UTC

I think every caregiver feels this way. ::hugs to you::

gryphonclaw December 28 2005, 00:12:09 UTC

i dont have anything comforting or helpful to say, i just want you to know that im here. theres nothing i can say anyway, youve already said it all. want me to make you another scarf? i dont care what people say, material possessions DO sometimes help people feel better lol. so yea, scraff? yea ill make you a scraff. scraff for joo.

*big panda hugs!*

im not really this shallow, i know i scarf cant really help or heal, but it can add a little bit of happiness to your life, and a little bit of happiness is never a bad thing.

cysteen6 December 28 2005, 02:08:37 UTC

Lol, I love you Jeannie=D

strumpet868 December 28 2005, 01:56:40 UTC

hey panda face heads pants face hands, you are always the best person I know and you deserve so much more than this you have a right to feel this way you are being asked to make sacrifices that you are not supposed to be making at this age it's rediculous, you deserve so much better. I'm sorry that life is a bitch right now and I really do sincerely hope that everything turns out ok. I just know that you have the strength to pull through this and I just wanted to let you know that I have faith in you. So I am giving you the thankyou that you so rightly deserve and I know it's not coming from the right people but I never say thank you for all the things you do for me and the rest of your friends, I hope you know that life as we know it wouldn't be the same without you and even though we don't say it that much, thank you for everything AND we love you. God okay cheese is coming out of my ears and also the psychiatrist glasses are comign off. From the read headed horror to the peace loving panda, I thank you for everything that you ( ... )