i'm getting my car fixed. I'm stranded at home. Its like being 15 again. someone come get me please!

i miss my baby. i want to get married and not work and go to school and live for free. then i will be happy.

looks like you were born a little smarter than they were ( Read more... )

she rises from the valley of ashes
leaving you to blow out the sparks
lift her from the bathtub
where she closed her eyes too long
following the light switch trails
back to sleep

the lights are out
my life is on the line tonight
my windows lined with velvet ash
the road ahead so black
and hard
my wheels hit the concrete
like my fist to her face
my cigarette is burning my fingertips
can't let go
pain embraced
hope erased
the stars are faint tonight
my gas tank running dry
my lips and legs are smooth
with the smell of

there goes the white rabbit
vanishing around the corner of my bloodshot eye
i think of where i want to die
chasing, chasing guilt with violet lies
and white corrosive stares
swallow the sharpness
hide your tearing eyes
try to keep the thoughts below your chest
so that they never reach your mouth
and accidently find their way out

i'M doing it..
actual studying for finals. i dyed my hair jet black. its a change...good or bad i'm not sure of. i needed something different. one of my college friends just came over to study. i hope i don't fail out. there's alot of interesting ppl i haven't met yet. we are giving away free flip flops at my work ( with any women's shoe purchase ) ( Read more... )

I went to my first AA meeting the other night and got a white chip. I'm so lonely and its so hard staying away from that one stupid thing that will bring me back to reality. i miss everyone and i'm scared that they'll forget me. I'm so tired all the time and i can't remember anything anymore. my brain feels like a pasta strainer. my parents just ( Read more... )

I'm spending the night at zack's meme's tonight. zacks truck is on the barrett pkwy exit ramp with a medley of flashing lights on the dash and a weird buzzing coming from the engine. if you leave your flashers on all night does it make your battery go dead? I'm happy my car's holding up. I miss Melina, James, and the 20 contact #s i lost when my ( Read more... )

I miss james.