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ho ho ho
Fuck the holidays. -
Pariiiiii
I'm going to Paris today. By myself. It's going to kick ass. -
Italia!
I don't think I ever could have imagined things changing so drastically for me here. It's subtle, but I feel myself morphing. I view things differently. I am more independent. I care less for work and grades and more for life and fun. Half of me says "I'm already twenty" and the other says "I'm only twenty". I'm caught but I'm free. I am, indeed, a ( Read more... ) -
home?
Part of me is dreading going home. It feels so unfamiliar now. The other part is really excited. And I feel incredibly guilty because I feel like that half is excited to see sam, not to be with family. Home has become such a disappointment. I guess this is the ultimate disillusionment. -
Secret
I have this on-again-off-again love with post secret. I first heard about it when I went to a friend's house last spring (Sara Hertweck at The Crash). I was invited over on a cold afternoon to watch football and seeing as how I had nothing better to do I accepted the invitation. I know nothing about football. I care nothing for football. So after ( Read more... ) -
The Front Page
So I have two more shows left of ASMing for this god forsaken show. It makes me very nervous that I fucking hated it. I'm hoping it's just because it was a boring show and there was little for me to do during the run. However, that being said, I got a lot of homework done ( Read more... ) -
lost
My family is falling apart. Now I see how foolish it was to think we were better than that. -
happy?
I fail at communication. I fail at my job. I fail at taking care of myself. I fail at keeping my grades up. sometimes I wish I were an entirely different person. I wish I was bolder. but fuck that. this is who I am. like it or get the fuck out of my face. I just want to be happy. -
weird
I went back to HITS for the first time in a long time. It's completely redone. It's not a shit hole anymore. it's nice. It's so weird that something that was the same in my mind forever keeps changing even though it's the same in my head. I don't think that made sense ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Nothing is going according to plan....it's frustrating but I like it. Being single was a fucking joke. We should've realized we were right for each other all along and that nothing was going to change that. I have no idea what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. It's scary but it's a little bit liberating.