spending hours shaking the empty bottles that were meant to hold my dreams ( Read more... )

pantoum, first draft

Thyroid Disorder

"try to live a normal life"
a gland secretes hormones
experimental medication
emotional vertigo

a gland secretes hormones
unstable, unbalanced
emotional vertigo
child victim of genetics

unstable, unbalanced
eternal fatigue
child victim of genetics
disorganized thoughts

eternal fatigue?
doc says ( Read more... )

i have to fucking start somewhere
this is better than nothing. fuck i hate my writing. i dont want criticism. i dont want compliments. i just want to be able to fucking write again.

children don't glow in the dark
a late night obsession
a stimulation for those in manic states
could this be me coming out
or am i fooling ( Read more... )

sushi, tanning, shower, strip club with mother?? god i hope not. ugh. found my pack of cigarettes i lost under the couch a couple days ago. THIS IS MY LAST PACK. (fingers crossed). ummmmm... requested more info and brochure from massage school, which apparently is really good. employers go to school to recruit new graduates and whatnot. which ( Read more... )

its been a while and im sure most of you have put my existence behind you. my hair has gone from 3/8 of an inch to about a foot and a half long, and also in 132 weeks i have lived in bethel, fairbanks, savoonga, nome, juneau, las vegas and near portland. yes, i live on an airplane. as for now i have decided to stay in las vegas for at least a month ( Read more... )

there is nothing left
to say
to complain about
to brag about
to feel about.

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today a man at safeway leered at me and shouted "DAMN!" when i walked by. i didnt think this was so bad, but then he kept following me around and saying it. finally i stopped to see if he would stop walking as well. instead he brushed by me and half grabbed my ass. this was only because i turned around and didnt let him get tme in the front. WHAT ( Read more... )

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