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in this span of time, i have loved and lost and learned more than i can ever comprehend. this has served me well. but i feel it is time for a change. i need a new platform on which to express my thoughts in order to do justice to the new people i have met, the new emotions i have discovered, the new world i have fallen into. i am still drinking it ( Read more... )

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We take ourselves very, very seriously. We are the peacemakers, the do-gooders, the givers, the savers. We are on time, overly prepared, well read, and witty, intellectually curious, always moving. We are living contradictions. We are socially conscious, multicultural and anti-corporate but we still shop at Gap and Banana Republic. We listen to hip ( Read more... )

I crush up my pills and snort them like dust. They are my sugar. They are the sweetness in the days that have none. They drip through me like tupelo honey. Then they are gone. Then I need more. I always need more. For all of my life I have needed more. My pills are methylphenidate hydrochloride, brand name Ritalin, but I will take Dexedrine or any ( Read more... )

What are you supposed to do with all the love you have for somebody if that person is no longer there? What happens to all that leftover love? Do you suppress it? Do you ignore it? Are you supposed to give it to someone else?
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what doesn't kill you only makes you.. stranger.


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i accidentally selected the song on my ipod on the way to school today. and i swear, everytime i hear it or any massive attack song for that matter, i am once again captivated in your room, tracing patterns on your back, patterns that would fabricate together to form a map of how i get the fuck out of there alive and independent. and i never saw ( Read more... )

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