ive been through this with enough people to know this is the beginning of the end. i dont even feel any certain way anymore... just tired. tired of being miserable i guess. it sounds so wrong but im so jealous of anyone who is happy or satisfied. it seems like the older i get, to harder it is to be happy. i wish it was as easy as when i was little ( Read more... )

in a psychological coma.... hahah yeah

i am thinking i have serious depression issues. i really am a crazy person ( Read more... )

people who cant just come out and say it really frustrate me. whats so hard about being honest?

"and betrayal, my brother, is the worst of all"

"i could be the one who would die to feel you breathe
but its too far gone
and this love must die

i could break into eight million pieces
so just run as fast as you can from me"

i have no idea why that song is called xmas day... seems like it could apply 365 days a year. guess only those really deep musical artists can understand it.

i hate every person who ever told me i dont want it bad enough. and every person who ever told me to cheer up. and who told me to smile. and to change. everytime i loose someone, its not really them that i miss. i miss everyone who is lost, and i dont just mean people that have died. i miss them so much right now that i think my heart is going to ( Read more... )

the inevitable still hurts even when you know about it. Tyler leaves.... its so shitty that im going to walk right by where he used to be and hes not going to be there. i wish i hadnt taken him for granted but im sure that just natural. i know that we changed each other's lives; i have a story to tell my grandchildren and he is worth more money ( Read more... )

god i just want to tear apart those conjoined friends. rip their skin and their innerds seperate from one another. make them not touch. those friends i had.... damnit who has the rights to trust issues here? come on now. i've been betrayed just as many times as all of you and here i am... ALONE, but ok. nobody can ever know what its like to loose ( Read more... )

NEHC finals is going to kick ass this year..... i think

yay for computers in business centers.

"jamaica, jamaica....."

just when you think you've got a heart tougher than steak, you meet someone who can cut you apart. i dont know what the hell that means but someone said it me and ive been thinkin about it. it makes me hungry.

feeling happy for the first time in too long.

"look over here, come follow me"