So,

Life is still beautiful.
I've been incredibly stressed,
and I feel like all the surface reasons I've been pawning it off to aren't true. But, you know- it's okay.

I don't like to acknowledge the roots of my problems.

Picking up my cap and gown today,
bizarre to think I've gotten here.
With none or little of my own volition.

I feel like oil in the engine.

This weekend was really great.

Today,
not so much.

But last night/early this morning.
dancedancedance.

And Friday was relaxing.

For clarification:

I am moving this fall, not spring!

I just realized that that update actually was really stupid in that regard.

Sorry, Amanda- and if that confused anyone else.

Moving to Vancouver ( Read more... )

Defiance Ohio thursday April 9th @the vera project w/dichotomy

feeling pretty alright

Last night helped.

So unsure,
So insecure
Grudging of the future.

I begin to see,
that within me-
is the person that I'd like to be.

I can't make up my mind,
can't really sense
what's right,
what's wrong
where I belong.

How do I get there,
when the world isn't fair?

I'll always be a mess.

A running theme in my life, is the desire to escape ( Read more... )