As predicted, this winter has been a hard one- in many ways. It has also been rewarding, though. I've grown alot out of my independence, but I've also realized how truly dependent I really am. On many things. Comfort, cigarettes, companionship and my pride are all things that I have realized that I lean on much too often ( Read more... )

Aggravated,
I know everything's fine.

But it just seems like everyone's always harsher/crueler than they have to be

It's not getting them anywhere.

I took my first university midterm today, and was really upset. I spent all yesterday studying for a realllly long time. And I shouldn't have even bothered. I got maybe one question that I wouldn't have, ( Read more... )

 Lonely.

It's finally hitting me that I might live up here for four years.
And I've realized
that I don't want to.

I miss Andrew.

It's really hard to be without him. Especially when we talk, and he's just leading a different life than me.
When I feel like I'm missing him, more than he'll ever miss me.
I didn't expect it to be this hard.
So much is changing ( Read more... )

It's harder than I thought it would be.

I leave in a little over three full days (Tuesday morning), and recently I've been thinking about friends lost, and friends gained.(a normal enough train of thought, for me) And change. Do you have to lose, to gain? I firmly believe there is another way ( Read more... )

I miss home, my friends and Adnrew more than I ever expected to. I guess I'm starting to realize how devastating going away for college will be. I  know I can make friends nearly everywhere I go, but I'm already homesick. I know it'll be good for me, and I love meeting new people, but there's a level of comfort with people who've known you for a ( Read more... )

I didn't expect to find some place I'd miss, when I leave. Somehow living out my life here seems feasible.

I just hope I remember to return here.

Europe's looking incredible for this summer ( Read more... )

PS

My summer just opened up a lot.

So,
I can go anywhere in Europe for three weeks.

Where,
what will I do,
I'm so excited to figure my ish out.

Come, come summertime.

Love love, hold my hand.