Well it's only 2 and a half hours before I do something crazy and I'm quite scared. I feel so shitty today, and my cough persists. It's so dumb that I have a job interview at Greggs right before I find out how much of a lunatic I am. Har, someone commented on last night's badass entry and says she understands. That makes her my New soulmate, ( Read more... )

This poor girl Kari is about to read all the shit I just wrote. I'm going to wait and see what she says, because I'm sad like that. Sad like I can't stop hounding someone if they don't tell me what I want to know. I hate myself so much, and I do care if you say "what a selfish cunt", because I care what people think. I know everyone better than I ( Read more... )

I hate knowing that my LJ is just one long, self-pitying ramble, but it does make me feel better ( Read more... )

This is immense. I miss my baby. I've tried reaching out to her one last time, before I go down the lonesome road I must take to cope. God I'm scared. I know she's going to delete the comment without reading it, same as everything else, but I don't want to send a letter. No no no. I can't deal right now, I have to go to bed. Fuck.

Well I'm hooooome. God I feel awful ( Read more... )

Bleh. I'm talking to Christine and Louise on msn while I copy many cds onto my new Windows Media Player. I feel cold, tired, hungry and need to pee, but also listless. I still have loads to do for college, but I want to curl up and sleep forever ( Read more... )

I asked her name. She told me ( Read more... )

She doesn't. Goodbye.

Is there no one out there who can help me? I sat for half an hour in the studio today staring into space today before I gave in and texted Nancy. I had a feeling she might reply and tell me something I should know. I'm not sure if she even cares anymore...I thinkso. She is as nice as she always seemed. I think I know why she doesn't talk to me ( Read more... )

I can't concentrate on not working. I can't do anything. I want to cry. Blah blah blah, we've heard it all before. I want to read Nancy's LJ and find out what's going on. Maybe I'm not the sole reason she made it friends only, but it seems so. I'm really going insane. Nothing is making me feel better today and I don't know what the fuck today. To ( Read more... )