Did you ever have a dream.

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I went. I saw. I touched.

"Never kissed. Never been touched. Never made love." That was the song on Radio 2 while a taxi drove me home from the station. I smiled.

I'll write up a grieviously long and boring account tomorrow. Ahem. With the exlusion of certain personal details... But I just wanted to say.

Yes!

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Dammit, I wont be able to read that Long And Boring Account till I come back. :( Damn you!

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=P Have no fear fair maiden! I shall print it off and post it to you at your holiday residence. I wanted the address for that anyway...

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Did you still love me here? I cried all night last night, I've never wanted the pain to stop so badly in all my life. Even when I got scalded at work a fortnight ago and my hand was on fire for days. I really wish we could talk like we used to, about anything really. I don't know how it got like this. I shouldn't have let myself think that you were okay with all my fantasies. You should have told me that you weren't. I should have given you room to breathe and been there when you needed me. You should have told Duncan that you had a boyfriend and not let him come between us. This morning I was thinking about deleting my livejournal, or posting my letter to your da on it, or sending you a really nasty text or something to make myself feel better. But I just wandered around town on my own and cried a little, and read a book on Samurai culture in the library and my bad feelings have just sort of seeped away. I said so many things to you yesterday, desperate to get some response. And there was none. I really am alone now, like I was