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Subconscious Preferences
Why push everyone away? Why willingly sabotage one's dealings with others? Because the part of me that doesn't think about what I'm doing prefers to be hated. It's simpler, it's safer, it's more comfortable. Not happier, but that's not been important for a long, long time. If I can believe everyone hates me, then I don't have to worry about doing ( Read more... ) -
Revisiting the Old Comrade
Paranoia's a lovely beast, and I've been allowed to pay her a great deal of mind as of late. ...That doesn't really make sense, does it? Hah, oh well. Also, liking people is overrated, and vulnerability is just a ploy. -
Melancholy, as ever.
How many times have I mentioned that I only post here (at least, for the past several entries) when I'm particularly upset? I don't know. This could be the first, because I never go back to reread ~ Err. Correction. Rarely go back to reread this nonsense.
Frustrated. At this stupid game. It's the only stupid game I'm willing to play right now, but ( Read more... ) -
Wounded Pride
Congratulations to me! Two blows in as many days! Crumble, you flimsy little foundation, crumble! We'll all come tumbling down on top of you, and then we'll be allowed our hysterics! Peace will be had when they let us be, peace in separation. Who needs peace? Only those who have so little that such is all they can ask for. Chaos is the greatest ( Read more... ) -
Smile for yourself.
Relax, dear, it could be worse.
What could be? Why am I relaxing?
Haven't a clue. I'm just chatting with myself for no apparent reason.
You mean you're chatting with yourself for no apparent reason.
Same difference.
Not entirely.
What'cha mean?
While you believe half your insanity is really just a game with yourself, can you really explain away the random ( Read more... ) -
A Natural Aptitude for Reading Between the Lines
Officially single again.
I friggin' hate being right all the time.
Pardon me whilst I slink into my room and wallow in emotional duress. -
Huzzah
December's the deadline. Once it rolls around, I can assume the answer is no ( Read more... ) -
I'm so sorry! My karma ran over your dogma!
Karma is like an enforced version of the Golden Rule (do unto others as you would have them do unto you).
So why does it seem I have a metric *&$%-ton of bad karma?
Seriously.
Aside from my mother, I'm the most patient person I know.
I don't yell at people out of anger, exasperation, impatience, etc.
It's been a good, long while since I smacked anyone ( Read more... ) -
Learning Experience
Never say "I can't" when talking about attitude adjustments. Everyone can learn to behave differently. I'm bloody tired of dealing with lazy folk what won't learn to do something right, carefully, and with a decent attitude ( Read more... ) -
Peculiarities
Stealing my ace of hearts ( Read more... )