When man ( Read more... )

I would have thought that after my dad died I would never again be forced to cower in my room. You don't understand how we can be so clumsy, you're pissed off half the time, we're not to go near your area ever again. You are a miserable bitch. It was just fucking water. Accidents happen. I have no idea how Matt can stand you.

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Why am I not as good as she is? Why don't I deserve love? Why don't I deserve happiness? Why is this life so god damned unfair? So because I didn't get enough love in my childhood and I was made to feel inferior and inadequate everyday of my life, I now am inferior and inadequate and nobody will ever love me? Jesus Christ, that's not fair.

Jennifer Schuley: I wanted to get to know you but the timing is fucked up I thought I could help you get over your ex, but even when you are over her you will need time to heal on your own. and I know that you do not need help from me because you have close friends who have been there for you. I know that this has more to do with you than me ( Read more... )

Nothing should matter more to me than my own well-being. Nobody should have better answers for me than I have for myself. I need to meditate on this ( Read more... )

Well, it isn't very deep, but I had a good time last night, nonetheless.

thoughts that came up:

fear of performing poorly in new social situations--misplaced fear.. we are all just people

love and appreciation to those in my life

no judgment on myself for the fear

fear of not being good enough

I'm just a person, like anybody else, and we're all the same.

we all have the same needs.

I have to relax and trust

So the idea is to "get mine" without consideration for your feelings. Because you're not considering mine.

All is right with the world.