My Flickr Pro account has expired. I am distraught.

Might be moving to Missouri. Thought I'd be upset by the idea, but I'm not really. Actually kind of excited. I think part of my problem is I'm having a hard time digging myself out of this hole. A fresh start might be a good thing ( Read more... )

I'm... alright. I'm not PERFECT, but I'm so much better than I have been for the majority of the last like 10 years, that that's okay with me. And things will certainly improve when I move out of my parent's house. Justin's pretty much miserable, and I think 99% of it is living with Momma and Daddy and 1/2 Lane. And 5 cats. When we move out, we'll ( Read more... )

Between Sarah's dad and Justin, we figured out how Justin and I could go to Sarah and Anthony's place for Thanksgiving. I'm super excited. Sarah's dad offered to pay for us to go up, which is the only way we're able to. Sarah swears up and down that her parents love me, and from their behavior it seems they do, but I still feel like they think of ( Read more... )

So. Life is above average lately. I was sick for aWHILE, but I think I'm finally getting better now. I've started looking at apartments. We won't be able to move out unless I can get a job making 800/month or more. I'll start looking again next week. Took this one off due to being ubersick. I found several I liked, one I LOVED. It had bay windows ( Read more... )

Things are a little better now. Justin cracked under the stress and said something he regretted. He has apologized a lot, but it's left me a bit shaken. So easy to lose my confidence ( Read more... )

I thought everything was... well, not perfect, life still sucks, but I thought it was getting -better-. But now I'm just flailing. I'm hoping my nerves will be better in the morning, because being scared out of my mind certainly doesn't help anything, and I know he hates it when I'm passive and overwhelmed. I just don't know what to do or how ( Read more... )

Ugh. I. Hate. Job hunting. Ugh again ( Read more... )

So I changed my AIM screenname. Doing little things like that to try to move on with my life. I'm completely unoriginal, however, so my new one is arbreaquila. I changed my e-mail address too, but that's more of a needing a professional e-mail issue than a moving on with life issue, although both are present. My new one is caseykelley@gmx.com. ( Read more... )

I keep having these terrible moments where I miss being in the Navy more than anything, and I would give anything to get back in. For a while there, I had some self-esteem. I mean, even when I was failing in ET A, I still could go out on the weekends and give something more than a fake smile. I was doing something, contributing, making my whole ( Read more... )