I was flicking through Justin's sister Lena's myspace, and came across this beauty.

"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." -Marilyn Monroe

Last night was the first night in awhile that I've slept without dreaming. On the whole, I don't dream - sleeping is just blackness to me. It's what I always imagined death to be like. Suspended on the air, nothing around you, almost emotionless. Calm. Being able to breathe without the tightness in my chest. Anyways, I get off my point. When I ( Read more... )

So I'm on a mood stabilizer now. Not even up to the full dose yet, and I can tell it's working. Psych said the Pristiq might be making me too wired, so she took me off of it and put me on Wellbutrin. I can already tell I'm calmer off of the Pristiq. Gotta give the Wellbutrin time to build up in my system before I can comment on it. Either way, I ( Read more... )

Stress, depression and general hostility has me behaving in a way that's below me lately. I've had a terrible week, and I'm labeling it as just that. A terrible week that's now over. Everyone's allowed to have a down week and this has been mine. I'm back on target though ( Read more... )

Here's a thought. If you've spoken to me a total of like five times in the last two years, one of which was me consoling you crying, and you've seen me less than that, then let's just assume that you don't know me. At all ( Read more... )

So, after reading Lindsey's comment and Amanda's message to me, I'm shocked. I mean, this is a journal, right? When I get upset, I try to write it here to get it out of me ( Read more... )

I just took my journal off of auto-friends only. So... Yeah. I might regret it, but we'll see ( Read more... )

Hey,
The papers got mailed out by my lawyer yesterday. A couple of things about that. There are three forms you have to sign. One is a petition to get a divorce. One is the actual divorce papers. The last is a waiver so you don't have to appear in court for this. Otherwise you'd have to show up here.
Anywho, you signing the divorce papers does not ( Read more... )

Short version: Warning - SHOCKING!

So, I went to MEPS (Military Entrance Processing Station) overnight, learned why they call it "Processing", and passed my height weight (by the grace of GOD). I signed up for Air Traffic Controllering, swore in, and am shipping out to basic training on March 14th.

( Long version: Warning - LONG! )

So today I had to go to an Albertson's to sample some sparkling wine, riesling, merlot, and chardonnay. The Albertson's was in Oviedo, on the corner of Red Bug Lake Road and Tuskawilla. I was really excited that I didn't have to drive into Winter Garden or Eustis today. So I mapquested it to check, and mapquest said "Take the 417 over to Aloma and ( Read more... )