it's so nice
to wake up in the morning
all alone
and not have to tell somebody
you love them
when you don't love them
any more.

richard brautigan

just when i thought the memory had faded,
it comes back in the form of a
3.5x5 black&white moment frozen in time


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i visited my grandmas grave today. the newly cut down tree made for a nice bench. [it was over 100 years old, i counted the rings] it's the first time i have been there by myself. i didn't say anything. just sat on the stump and thought ab how wierd life is. when we are alive it's all noise and hussle, but when your dead, it is silent. i listened ( Read more... )

the first thing i thought was, 'i hate you'
but i am not capable of hate

so can someone please explain this feeling
of regret for being myself

i tucked in my shirt to keep the baby from falling out.
even though the baby consisted of a ball of clothes, it was a nice thought.

self-disclosure is one of the principal ways we have of communicating not only with others but with ourselves. it's possible, then, that at times we're afraid to disclose ourselves to others because we don't want to get closer to ourselves. self-disclosure can put us into contact with parts of ourselves that we'd rather ignore.

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they were having lesson time. there was sholeh, sitting in the back on a yellow circle of the shape carpet. the teacher was talking about teeth and how to keep them healthy. she had the kids name foods that were good for teeth and someone said milk. she then said, "yes, and where does milk come from?" sholeh immediately popped up and with a ( Read more... )

i sooo want to get a tattoo

once a boy gave me flowers.
i threw them out the back door after he left.