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i'm falling apart. my days are spent laying in bed, fever surging through me, crying. i'm so frustrated with everything that has happened. i want to let him go but i can't. instead i keep calling and texting him, he just ignores me. i tell him that i love him, that i need him, how much i miss him. no reply
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Have you been taking some meds to help make you feel better?
I know you may not completely believe this, but if things continue to not work out between the two of you, you can still make it. You have been through so much, and although you think that the only reason you've survived is because you had him, the truth is that you have inner strength as well. You can pull through this.
I know what you mean about the mirrors... if I change I try to turn my back to it. It's like I can't take seeing my own reflection anymore... not just my bodies... but even my eyes. Like... you don't want anymore proof that you exist, because you truly wish you didn't. Plus, youre too tired to deal with obsessions about how much mor weight you feel that you must lose.
But, hang in there sweetie. Perhaps in the future, though it may not be near, things will get better... God... I hope for both our sakes that things get better.
*hug* take care.
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that is so true! that's exactly how i feel. like, even if i'm just laying down in bed, i don't want to look at any part of myself. i read or keep my eyes closed and avoid even looking at my own hands when i turn the pages of a book. i just don't want to realize that i'm still here.
i'm on antibiotics and sudafed for my sinus infection; or did you mean anti depressants? my therapist actually put me off all meds (i think my parents asked her to) because they weren't really helping and after ODing two times this summer, my parents are always scared to give me anything at all.
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Feel better! *hug*
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