my heart feels heavy today.
i feel so worn out.

i can't believe i let myself lose the only person that means anything to me.
but i guess it's just like me to fuck things up.

i'm not going to try to get better,
i'm not going to try to heal.
it's no use. 
i won't.
it'd be a complete waste of energy.

right now the only longing i have,
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