so...I had the coolest/craziest dream the other day. I was at my house and it was getting ready to storm. I called Johnny Depp to come over but he didn't answer. So I decided to call Christian Bale. He came over and we started messing around, then I went into the kitchen outlooking the back porch. I see Johnny Depp out on the back porch. I go ( Read more... )

love sucks

and then again I do. Its been so long that I forget what it feels like to be loved. I mean yeah I could have been dating...but I want in something that I think might last. No one has made me feel that way for 3 years now. I miss that feeling, but then I don't want to risk getting hurt so bad that history repeats itself. BLEH

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My friend thought it was an awesome idea for me to go blond...from black. Yeah, it didn't work AT ALL. So i had blond, copper and brown hair and it looked absolutely disgusting. and I had to call in to work today because I didn't want to be soooooo embarrassed. But I got it fixed, and I love it

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I don't know what to do. I don't think I will ever be happy. Right now I am trying to support my family at the expense of part of myself. But if I try to make myself alone happy it will leave my family in pieces. One person I thought I could confide in is making me feel like a piece of shit. It comes down to either my family being secure or me ( Read more... )

Tim came over to my house tonight for some reason. I dunno, but I feel like shit. I don't think I miss him as an individual but how I felt with him....anyways, I feel like shit. Goodnight.

Last night I went out with some work friends to the club. We had tons of fun...but there is this one guy that my friends have been telling me likes me. The only problem is that he is shy and so am I. I mean I have been single for 2 1/2 years. And before that I was in a relationship for about 1 1/2 years. So I haven't dated in almost 4 years so ( Read more... )

So I just got back from Omaha on Wednesday. Lets just say my birthday was interesting. The trip was good altogether. I wish I could have stayed longer. After the trip, my mom told me that she was thinking it would be nice to move back in a few years. I would move back in a second if she asked me. More about my trip later.

I keep forgetting about this place. My wonderful friend Deanna reminded me. So my birthday is on Sunday and I am very excited. I am going to Omaha to celebrate. That's making me think about old times. I miss old times. But there are perks to growing up, just haven't found them yet. Eh, I can't complain. Life's been good to me so far ( Read more... )