all of a sudden i just remembered that night in the bathroom of trailer four... at that point i think we werent really speaking to each other (god that was so mature of us...) but you needed me... you needed someone to listen, someone to put cold washcloths on your head... i dont know if you really remember it, but i sure do... just know that im always there for you like that... i miss you so much. man, i would give so much just to be able to hang out with you again...
Re: memories...paperdoll17April 12 2004, 04:39:53 UTC
i remember that evening as well. you're right, we weren't really talking at that point...what a dumb semester. but yeah, i was in the bathroom flipping out, i thought i was dying and you were in the computer room, i think. i called you to come to me and you did. just having you there calmed me down. thank you. i love you.
Re: memories...ride_i_wantApril 12 2004, 15:19:37 UTC
i love you :o) as far as the quitting smoking thing... ive quit twice (once because i wanted to, once because i was told i had to...) it took willpower, a conscious decision that i dont want to smoke anymore, and friends who were quitting as well to say "no, you dont really want that cigarette." it also helps to have some healthy stress relief methods lined up... i only started again because of stress (both times)... it was cigarettes or razors and i went for the cigarettes. but it sounds like youve been doing pretty good running lately, and that should come in handy!! good luck!!
Re: memories...paperdoll17April 12 2004, 15:46:23 UTC
hahah, yay for running! only, now i have shin splints and those suck major booty. i've decided to take up sunflower seeds. they take forever to eat which is good (so i'm not stuffing my face) and fulfill my twitchy need to relieve stress.
yeah, i'm feeling it today. i knew it wouldn't be all that hard to quit smoking pot...i basically do that out of sheer boredom. but dammit, i have never wanted a cigarette more than i do right now. i haven't had one since saturday morning. but i refuse to give in this easily. i figure i'll wait till all of my fingernails are chewed off and all my hair is pulled out...
yeah, it's a vicious cycle. but maybe if i replace smoking with something beneficial like running or bank robbing... what about sewing sweaters for physically challenged ferrets?
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! now that's the spirit! dude, do you wanna be my own personal live-in motivational speaker? i make a mean peanut butter and jelly sandwhich...
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as far as the quitting smoking thing... ive quit twice (once because i wanted to, once because i was told i had to...) it took willpower, a conscious decision that i dont want to smoke anymore, and friends who were quitting as well to say "no, you dont really want that cigarette." it also helps to have some healthy stress relief methods lined up... i only started again because of stress (both times)... it was cigarettes or razors and i went for the cigarettes. but it sounds like youve been doing pretty good running lately, and that should come in handy!! good luck!!
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but i try and only do it at certain times
i almost always only smoke ciggerettes
when i smoke weed/drink beer
but i guess that doesn't help you much
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then all i craved was chewing gum...
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...nobody likes a quitter, so dont feel bad :). hehe.
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i love peanut butter and jelly! :)
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