I can't wait to start a new life. To move to a new place with new people, new places, and new sceneries. New classes and new peers. New reputations. New rules. New roads to get lost on. New ways to mess up; new ways to fix my mistakes.

i'm so sick of being sick.

haven't gone to school for 3 days. most likely won't be going again tomorrow.
blaaahhh..

Things to do:

1). get better by tomorrow.
2). stay better.

tomorrow is only a few hours away.
eeek.

I'm trying.

my mind is going crazy. i cant control it.

i'm a horrible person.

i'm honestly terribly afraid that i am the only one that sees certain things about you. amazing things. The side of you everyone should be able to see. i think i'm the only one who will ever know that side of you because now you're afraid to trust. 
I hope you don't think everyone is like me. You too good for that.

i was just thinking.

thinking. thinking. thinking.

lots of things bring back so many memories.

i wish you would have answered my phone call. i wish you'd call me back. i wish i could get the courage to call you again.
because i miss you and i need you. because you're my family and family shouldn't go this long without talking. no matter what happened.

I always wonder "what if?"
and it plays with my head too much.

i love listening to unsigned bands. they're the ones who do it for fun, not for the money, which makes their music so much better.