yeah i know i never post and no one reads but whatever. life has been treating me good, im glad to be done with school and im going to be starting working soon. im really happy with certain things, but some others im still uncertain how i feel about it, but for the most part im pretty darn optomistic. tommorrow will be my second hospital visit ever ( Read more... )

Why are females so comlicated? Idk ive been seeming to mess up alot lately. making wrong decisions, and bad timing all over the place, misinterpreting signals and feeling very.. unrequitted. idk, ive been contemplating giving up recently, because whenever i seem to like someone, there is always some catch, which happens to usually be that they dont ( Read more... )

well it would seem that my christmas is going to be a very lonley one again. it just sucks really bad. i dont even know why im posting this, no one reads or cares anyway

HEYYYY For the first time in quite a while things are looking up for me again. All i know is i feel very relieved now, the burden has been lifted off my shoulders and it went much much better than i had expected. the song served its purpose and did what i need. There is still uncertainty, but the future appears to be much better than i had ( Read more... )

i sent her the song i wrote last night, i wonder how its all going to go. i guess ill figure it all out tommorrow. i just hope im not setting myself up for heartbreak, because that is most definitley not fun. if you want to hear it, let me know - notacry4help

ugh, im so stupid. i should have known better, sometimes people shouldnt make you believe something thats true, especially when it comes to best friends. getting hurt is never fun, crying is never fun, happy birthday to me...

well today was my 18th birthday. i slept over tolgas last night and we had a pretty chill time woke up randomly at 630 and just hung out at his house at 9 we went to the mall randomly saw donna, that was interesting, after that i went home got my car showered and went to the track meet at massapequa highschool im glad i got to see steph and laura ( Read more... )

yeah i never update this thing, but life is pretty interesting now, i love my band playing shows is great and the support from people we recieved from last show was outstanding. i cant wait to write more music and play bigger and better shows. as far as friends go, i love making new friends and hanging out with diffrent people, also bonding more ( Read more... )

so i decided to write her a note and tell her exactly how i felt, and i did i had the hardest time in the world handing it to her. she didnt talk to me at all in music theory, no reaction no response, when i talked to her tonight she didnt say much at all, she said thanks, and she really didnt know, she said she missed me, but i dont know how ( Read more... )

i cant believe it really, i thought i was completely over her and in reality im not, i miss her very much still and i see her 2 periods every day, i cant even talk to her or barely look at her, every time i see her i think of what we had together and i just feel like crying, i even tried moving on, i had someone else sort of it just didnt work out ( Read more... )