Comments | papiermachemade: you used to call me sweetie, now you call her that

papiermachemade

you used to call me sweetie, now you call her that

Mar 30, 2004 00:03

i want to tell you so badly that i still miss you. not all the time, but sometimes. i dont know if its so much you that i miss, or how it felt to be with you that i miss. its odd to think that after a year and half i could still say that, but i suppose that a part of me will always want to be with you. even if you are not who you used to be. i know ( Read more... )

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AWWW!!! from Laura anonymous March 31 2004, 06:32:56 UTC

Siobhan! that's soooo sad!! it really wants to make me cry because i know how you feel! who knows... some day he might realize what a good person you were and what you had. (i never really knew a lot about your relationship) but it sounded like he talks to you once in a while?? at least that's progress! i wont say to keep hoping cause you may build up dreams that may never come true, but if the situation passes your way, don't pass it up. in the mean time, do as you said... fill your time with other people and distractions. yes, you will still think of him, but soon those distractions will fill your time and you will have less time to think and ponder... and torture yourself with thoughts. hun... i'm sorry that you still feel this way and are hurting, but honestly. it's better to have loved and lost than never loved at all.... *MUAH* p.s. we should talk more!

Re: AWWW!!! from Laura papiermachemade March 31 2004, 19:37:33 UTC

yes laura we should talk more, and we will. i should clarify and say that its not so much that i want him back as i want that feeling again. its not an all the time thing, just occasionally. i love being on my own and to be honest im not sure im ready to give it up. ive run from a couple of opportunities. i dont know if ive grown enough yet, maybe thats it. more likely its just an excuse. filling my time with other people is both good and bad. ive made some incredible connections that way, but ive also become an entirely different person and one that many wont really recognize when i go home.
thanks for everything tho. youre really a sweet girl and i appreciate it. ill get through it. i always manage to. thanks and take care. talk to you soon.