please just go away ( Read more... )

sunday night. weekends over. 5 more days in this bizarre city and thenim home for a week. its going to be rather interesting since im completely broke. really wanted to get my cash release from the school but instead i have to work at the chicken shack so i can pretend to have money. ill probably work at the high school (otherwise known as hell) ( Read more... )

so yeah. last night was friday night, my second night in a row of intoxication and i intend to do it again tonight. its been a long assed week and i worked really hard and im broke and miserable so i fucking deserve it. so yeah, thursday night, 16 jello shots and a meltdown, but well get to that one in a moment. last night, mmm the best tasting ( Read more... )

i think i made a big mistake on friday/early saturday morning. i made myself vulnerable, putting the way i felt about a person out there. he took advantage of it and now im feeling disappointed and hurt. oh well, i guess ill have to get over it. ive got too much i have to do to sit and think about it all the time. he is just like all the rest... ( Read more... )

havent stopped by my live journal in a few days so im updating now so you can all keep up to date on my life. i know you like to know everything. hah ( Read more... )

have you ever met someone that makes you feel what you thought you couldnt feel again? i believe today that i have. for a long time i havent let myself feel certain emotions. whenever i used to i would end up getting hurt. to feel these emotions scares me. ive been so scared for so long that now i dont remember and dont know how to feel them. ive ( Read more... )

so ive decided to make a list of all the things that annoy me in a hope that once theyre all out and in the open, they wont bother me as much. heh, well see how that goes. (secretly, im also a list person, its like an obsessive compulsive thing for me.)i warn you though, this may be long and you may want to tell me to shut up. if so, dont read this ( Read more... )

nothing too eventful today i guess. went to my classes...spent an hour in calc and didnt understnd anything the fricken nutzo russian robot tried and failed to teach. so im resolved to get a tutor. this sucks. but im over it i guess. english/ college writing was filled with its usual interesting discussion. sadly though, i fell asleep in class. i ( Read more... )

today i made a decision to get all the stuff thats stuck in my head out. ive been doing alot of thinking lately about what im doing with my time and its cluttering up my head and making it hard to focus. maybe this might help some. who knows. im skeptical. a long time ago i decided i wanted to take more risks in my life, but now i thin maybe ive ( Read more... )