i want to tell him so badly, but im so afraid of what hell say. and what if he says what i dont want to hear and then theres that awkward silence and that weird feeling between us. and then ill be let down again. but what if i tell him and he feels the same ( Read more... )

Despite being in classes on my birthday, today still ended up being a real cool day. So to go with lj tradition ( Read more... )

the birthday is in 3 days and i still have no plans and none of my friends seem to interested in doing anything for my birthday. and then i found out today that now im not going to nyc next weekend. so it looks like my birthday is going to quickly go down the drain. fucking awesome. i love birthdays ( Read more... )

ok so i felt it was time to update because i am getting sick of opening my lj and seeing the hospital rant again and again and again ( Read more... )

so i spent 8.5 hours last night and this morning at Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center. all because i have a urinary tract infection. which i told them i had. but they needed to get a urine sample, draw blood (thanks to the lady that took it for blowing my vein, i know look like a heroine addict.), and do two catscans. not one, but two. why two ( Read more... )

what a really great weekend at home. everthing basically went just how i wanted it ( Read more... )

Today is the last day for me, and though i was saying that i wont miss this place, i actually really think i will. There are so many nice people here and i was getting too wrapped up in one stupid mean woman and her dumb bullshit. i relaly do infact love it here and it makes me not want to go back to school. sigh. oh well ( Read more... )

damn you lj and youre losing my post ( Read more... )

so today at work amy pulled me aside and told me to tuck in my shirt or do something because the Human Resources Nazi (her real name is Caroline but for now I shall call her HRN) had said YESTERDAY to her that I may need to be sent home because my tattoo was showing ( Read more... )

gar. whats new whats new whats new ( Read more... )