so im working to get past alot of the things that have been bothering me lately. there was more than i realized and alot of things that may also be affecting my mood that i hadnt even accounted for. i think im probably in denial around them. i dont want to talk about them really. not here. i dont think i want this to be that personal anymore. there ( Read more... )

no, im not the super nice one. im not the always positive one either. im not always a bitch, and im not always grumpy. what i am is this: sometimes, when the situation calls for it, i am a bitch. sometimes im in a really shitty mood and so i am grumpy. sometimes im super happy and hyper and i will bounce off the walls and be giddy and stupid. im ( Read more... )

so ive been keeping the idea of transferring schools in the back of my mind for quite some time now. it started last year. some of that was brought on by the chaos of transitioning into college. but the idea hasnt gone away. and there are alot of reasons for that ( Read more... )

so i have spent alot of time thinking lately. ive come to realize that there is something underlying whats been going on with me. i think this summer has had a major effect on my behavior. ive been so angry because of all of the horrid events that for some reason, ive een unfairly taking it out on those closest to me. to you, you know who you are ( ( Read more... )

so much shit happens in a week when you really think about it. lets think ( Read more... )

so im making it a rule to make a new post every week so that i keep up with this thing because otherwise i think ill forget and just sit here stalking other people by reading their ljs and comments. yeah im a loser like that. haha ( Read more... )

i dont have a clue when i last updated. in all honesty, i really dont want to update. but i have nothing else to do while my pork cooks so i figured i should do this ( Read more... )

so today was kind of tough. its the three year anniversary of september 11 and its the anniversary of my cousin stephen's death. its really tough being away from home at a time like this because all you really want is your family. for some that werent affected by the events on that day, today was like any other saturday. my hope is that you could ( Read more... )

ive come to realize that shitty stuff has been happening more and more lately. so i decided i should write it all down so that i can see how really miserable i am. instead of just laying in bed crying which is what i was doing ten minutes ago ( Read more... )

my parents are going to kill me ( Read more... )