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Falling Fast
It's always these times in my life when I feel the darkness surround me and dread over-whelms. I feel like I am dying- or at least the only part of myself that I love. Freedom devoured in the hours of a work day ( Read more... ) -
From A Long Time Ago
Boy, it's been such a long time that I wrote here, that I felt obligated to write. I was thinking while brushing my teeth about how this has always been the only place in my life where I was truly honest, didn't have to hide anything, and was open about my thoughts, feelings, and experiences.
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A Thought About The Human Disease: Retarded Conclusions
Oh man, I just came to a funny realization. Okay, so you have a drug problem and admit you have a problem; therefore, you go out and seek help for your addiction. Once they discover you have a child in your possession the doctors, nurses, or counselors go out and contact child welfare services because they believe you may be unfit to look after ( Read more... ) -
A Plan For A Future
For the past year and a half I've been dying everyday and watching my future decay in the shadows of ever lasting darkness. I've thought about killing myself: dreaming of a perfect death, a way to escape the endless nightmare that everyday of my horrible life has become. It is endless; it is despair; it is darkness; it death. My heart has lost the ( Read more... ) -
A long time
It's been a while since I posted here- I'm still alive, for reasons beyond my own understanding. I've still been writing poetry and stuff, but it's locked away in a thin note book I've been carrying around with me where ever I go. It's all hardcore depressing shit.
Here's an on the spot example.
I near a window that over looks an elementary school.
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HE ROts INside
Selling our lies for the price of life
We find our homes in shallow graves
Sometimes on fire we are left to burn
Sometimes in love we are left to drown.
My secrets are the murdered rape victims
Of this loveless marriage we call hope.
Between the rotten floor boards I find
The unwanted child we named love.
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Good As New
Washes over me
And rinses me away
So much dusty secrets
Runny stains streak down
My lifeless face
Washing away all
These lies
I have made.
Cut the wrists
Behind my burned back
Watch as my life spills away
Just another waste
Of precious time.
All these lives
I have lived.
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Conversation with Lucifer
From out of the darkness
He spoke to me
Said that this stuff and money
Are food.
Take what you need
And share the rest with loved ones
They are hungry too.
Weary heads and tired eyes
We’ve all been walking through the waves.
Our minds are broken, our tears run dry;
Feeling every second of this pain.
Look past your sight
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Crimson Tears On Glass Walls
I hear the sounds of stalking footsteps
Lingering behind locked doors.
Calling out from the shadows and storms
of broken families.
Families left to rot in the ruins of burning
houses and dead mothers.
They climb through open windows
They come through dark nights
Their eyes are full of hunger
Their hearts are always empty
He tells me that someday I will beg
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Empty Floors and Cold Windows
Reminds me of when I was still a human being
Instead of the cheap replica I’m trying to pass as
My eyes grow numb and tired from the time they keep.
There’s never a minute that I don’t wish I was asleep.
Eyes watch over me- hungry by my pain
Mouths always frothing- to taste my tears
Their devil black hearts and forfeit souls-
Distorting ( Read more... )