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Last Night of Our Lives
I wanna live forever,
But never lived like this.
I wanna trade tomorrow.
For everything like a kiss
I would let you go if
That's all that you wish.
You go out and pretend that this is not a problem of mine
Your face is cut up by those razor blades and.... -
I can't remember God
I've been dead now, lo these past 6 years which have drifted away like I was lost inside a coma.
I should have seen how anihilated I was when I traded joy for sorrow, sorrow for fear, and fear for self desteuction.
Now I am Omega, the end, and I stand in trechery and wonder on the eve of oblivion. Will this be a new road, or further down the path ( Read more... ) -
Going down a hardway
It's been awhile, but I've been sleepwalking for the past 6 years, so whatever....
I am supposed to move today, but don't know where, how, or when. Everything is going bad, all at the worst time.
I'm almost imressed.
Oh mother and father,
who art in Heaven,
Hallowed be thy name,
Thy kingdom come.
May your will be done on Earth,
As it is in Heaven.
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Days of Rage
It's been a while since I last posted here: I used to post almost daily, but for the past few years I have been overwhelmed with life. My son Severyn was born almost two years ago and I spend most of my life looking after him. I have been in deep philosophical thought and have been working on my writing; however, often I find myself too distracted ( Read more... ) -
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These are the days when suicide warms the heart like a mother's gentle touch. I wander, blind to my fate- a tragedy to all who watch me and cannot understand why I falter. My time has stopped and as the days slide by I realize that I am missing the point of life. I need to be doing, constructing, fulfilling my destiny and carving out a life; ( Read more... ) -
Been thinking about the bible
It seems to me to be a book regarding a template to change society. It often plays out the worst possible outcomes and prepares the reader to expect them if they are on a mission to facilitate change in society as a whole. -
A Hope For My Family's Future
It seems like my life is starting to begin again.
I'm most happy to say, that after 4 years together, Nancy and I have finally reach the level of love and trust I had always hoped for. I find the growth was caused not only by the birth of my gorgeous son- Severyn- last year on November 28, but also because I was willing to commit myself more to her ( Read more... ) -
Strange Thoughts on Strange Days
I feel like I live my life with a rope around my neck. I just don't cry for tears anymore. I wash my hands from all this sin and dirty them up yet again ( Read more... ) -
Not Feeling Well
Lately, I've been feeling sick a lot more- dizziness, blurred vision, great fatigue, etc. I feel like I might die on most days. I should probably see a Dr, but it seems like such an impossible task. I find it so hard to do anything on my own any more- even going to the liquor store or pharmacy is a triumph.
I pray to the father in Heaven- hallow'd ( Read more... ) -
Work AD
So I've had to return to work this week- Wednesday Aug 4, 2010- after my long time away since November 28, 2009- which is my son's birthday. I realize the folly in my ways- I should have been more actively searching for a new job, than just accepting returning back to Impark.
Naturally, upon my return there has been many sad days in my life. For the ( Read more... )