today i talked with mike on the phone for a half an hour and i felt more complete. it was a mix of what are you up to now and every detail of all the characters and their special moves in the video game he was playing whilst talking on the phone. also amazing, i got to see gram and grandpa and we even got in a few hands of pinochle before the train ( Read more... )

i saw someone i haven't talked to in awhile today, and we went through the usual how are things. and i hate that, i want to be a brilliant conversationalist, i wanted to tell him about when the dairy queen exploded on me. but no ( Read more... )

so i was talking to philanthropies and he said he was amazing and we both agreed we are good primarily because of absence of bad. well hindsightly i'm not sure that this is true, maybe we are amazing because all of the good. i guess it shows our personalities, i mean his and mine. i kind of can't wait until something bad comes along again. to see ( Read more... )

hmmm. i like hearing from people i haven't heard from in a while, and i like hearing from people i heard from a few days ago. i sent out a shitload of valentine's for fun, and there are 5 people i did not finish making some for because it was 3 a.m. and i wanted to do something else. i filled up my flask yesterday with stolen jack daniels.but not ( Read more... )

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i wanted to make a wish at work today. it would be that no old man should have to feel lonely. save it for the young. and if i could make a wish right now, it would be to give my best friend a hug, because i am tired, and feel like shit, and he gives really really good hugs.

i've decided on the way home that my last few years have been thoroughly based in skimps and splurges. mostly about food but other things too. all summer i skimpped on the tolls. today i splurged on donuts and nugs. but i've never splurged on love, and have usually skimped on emotion. and this i may start regretting, because times are a changing, ( Read more... )

with a little more force i would have just punctured myself in the head with a knife unawares. it was sticking out of the drain when i went to get a drink because i don't use cups sometimes ( Read more... )

so greg has been giving me advice like compare prices at supermarkets. i think his subtle phone advice today was, don't act on impulse towards greatness (ha i added greatness for my own ego) because you hurt people when you have to hold things back. i'm leaving this as an advanced apology.

oh god. picking finger or biting nails. where is the happy medium? bandaids? i need more self control on this one. at work i talked to some of the kids i met on friday. i am keeping my eye on this one guy, who is the most mysterious, uncomfortable human i know. picking.............grrrrrrr ( Read more... )