- thirty-second year waiting -

[nurse_boy]

Almost didn't realize what today was. I suppose it sort of--snuck up on me. Wasn't really keeping track, though.

I've been here for a year, now.

... Blimey.

It hasn't felt that long.

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[advocacies]

A whole year?

[advocacies]

Worst introduction into Paradisa, if you ask me.

[ another pause. ]

I've noticed. I don't know if I'm grateful or concerned at this point.

[nurse_boy]

[privately, he thinks his might be worse--confronted with his wayward fiancee and the castle's idea of what their child together might look like--but he's biased, and he doesn't mention it. Besides, he and Amy got their happy ending, finally. Sort of. He huffs a chuckle]

You and me both, honestly.

So ... [awkward conversation shift get] You're the hero type, right? You fought crime and stuff back home?

[advocacies]

[ whoa, talk about random. ]

Yeah, I did. What's this about?

[nurse_boy]

Just curious ... some of the other ones here, they sort of, I think, see people in black and whites. Either you're good, or you're bad, and there isn't any in-between. Does that make sense?

[advocacies]

I wouldn't say that's entirely true. What brought this on?

[nurse_boy]

[a very long pause before he says hesitantly]

So you think people can be forgiven? Because it feels like some people here ... once you do something wrong, you can't go back. You're a bad person forever.

[there's also the sound of rustling pages]

It probably shouldn't matter, since you can't remember your last time here ...

[advocacies]

There is a certain mindset people have. You do something wrong, they don't want to forgive. But it really all depends. If you rob a bank... it's wrong but it isn't impossible to redeem yourself.

[ a measured pause. ]

What's going on, Rory?

[nurse_boy]

[more rustling pages and another long silence]

I ... I made a mistake, once. A--really bad one.

[advocacies]

How bad?

[nurse_boy]

[he's going to regret this, he really is. But he hates the feeling that he's hiding something from her, and the guilt over their last meeting before she left is still gnawing at him some, even nearly a year later. So in the end, all he does is simply give her a bookmark in her journal, and mumbles--]

It probably doesn't explain a lot.

Rory forever;

[advocacies]

[ she reads through and every word crawls under her skin as she keeps going. this is why rory is so nervous around her. ]

Did you kill someone?

Karen; and forever and ever, amen

[nurse_boy]

[a long, low, shuddering release of breath comes from his end, and when he speaks his voice is shaking slightly]

No. Yes. I--I don't know. ... I might as well have.

[advocacies]

How do you not know?

[nurse_boy]

I hurt a lot of people.

Some of them, it--it might've been--the wounds looked ... mortal.

[and he's practically biting a hole through his lip to keep from blurting 'but it wasn't really me!' because, despite his fears, he feels he owes it to her to let her make up her own mind]

[advocacies]

This entry says here someone named Griffith was the cause of whatever happened.

What happened to you?