i cant express my feelings the way i want to. it takes me a long time to jump off the ledge even tho i know i wont get hurt falling 25 feet into water. its all to easy to just say fuck it and live, why cant i live by the chaos theory. hopefully soon i can express something true in my heart and not get screwed over.

would u show me the door ( Read more... )

i need u here lindsay, dont shut me out please..i didnt do anything. i woke up from a dream with u there lindsay please dont leave my life, ur to good a friend and i dont wanna lose u u dont know how much it hurt when u said u blocked ur buddylist....please come back,,,i miss u lindzerr, u dont even know....if u read this, will u please come back ( Read more... )

big and wonderful like an ocean
used as much as a rejected gift
silenced more than charlie chaplain
just wanting to make things happen
listened to as much as teens listen to there parents
still wanting to know the reason

i would give up any tropical beach vacation to do this again
talking to you and hoping it would never end
about life, and how the earth is round
taking it all in with you, every sight every sound
thank you for the day and smiling back
it helped bring fourth the smile that i once lacked

i got a prom date! shes so pretty and soft spoken and shes really really nice! man just what i been looking for! alls i have left to do is get her flowers!

if anyone at all reads this give me a message or something cuz its getting kinda lonely and useless!

hey, now that the year has bassicly folded into its final chapter lemme update on what i said in the go away entry, that mentor chic that came to our school is a complete stuck up bitch to sum it up i dont even wanna look at her, still no girlfriend thru all of senior year, went to 2 icp concerts which was sweet, that girl joey in drawing an ( Read more... )

if any of u are offended and take my entries the wrong way, good. i have nothing to do with it, its my thoughts and i never forced you to read em there my songs dreams and thoughts, a penny for your words kinda thing, i barely ever write but it was brought to my attention that someone took my writing personal, and u know what, at least i touched ( Read more... )

imma let you in on something. ive always been in love well for most of my teen social life ive liked jacqui for so long and this feeling i get about her is so overwhelming when i see her it renews its strength. i cant help it its a feeling ive grown with, sometimes it made me lonely sometimes it makes me sad and others it makes me happy and makes ( Read more... )

i can remember, all that she gave to me ( Read more... )