work at the old job will be done soon. i can hardly wait for that to be over with. i've been studying more on zen, and i'm starting to understand what it means. that's quite a lot of progress really, considering how unusual some of the things can be. it's really fascinating though, and i'm beginning to understand how it works and how it applies and ( Read more... )

i realize that i haven't written anything recently, the fact is that i've been slipping somewhat. but that's ok, what i'm trying to do is a huge change in so many ways, i never expected it to be easy. and i anticipated what's been happening too. it's disappointing but it's also one of the signs that tells me it's good for me and to keep pushing on ( Read more... )

When travelling to a destination, we must begin where we are. It is so very fundamental and logical that when travelling from point A to point B that we are starting from point A that we take this fact for granted. When we are attempting to do this in a more abstract way, such as a journey of self-improvement, taking this for granted is a big and ( Read more... )

I've just come to a realization about happiness. I never knew what it was before. I actually still don't know what it is, but now I'm aware of this and I can pursue it ( Read more... )

well, since my last update, things have been going well. that's not to say that things are going perfectly according to plan, because i still have to fight practiced ways for positive change in myself. but with this new mission/goal, it's *A LOT* easier to be aware of when i'm not on the right track. furthermore, it's much easier to make ( Read more... )

(It should be noted that I have back-posted a couple of entries from my other journal here, to give a little more context, although I still need to post a couple more I think ( Read more... )

well, where to start? i've been reading, talking to my friend a bit, working as usual, trying to keep on top of my finances etc. things have been going pretty well for the most part. i had an interesting week last week, some interesting clients and runs at work. i even got to go to nascar ( Read more... )

I rolled over and submitted to The Man today, I just don't have time to not be earning a living or fighting the overwhelming force of "because we said so" that is government today. So as of approximately now or sometime today, my fingerprints will be permanent residents of lord knows how many government computer systems. I'm sure they will long ( Read more... )

my reality is clashing with my idealism. working at my job requires that i have an airport ID. i get this through a little government bureaucracy called ground transportation which is part of a somewhat larger government bureaucracy called airport operations ( Read more... )

WOOO!! 69% Boomer!! :D~~~


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