making maps of molecules on my ceiling as the backs of my eyelids become elusive
counting dead sheep holding hands along side each other
a prayer circle of fear
a million yards away a distance looms
my legs aren't strong enough to break through

my closet, a shrine to paranoia

weave my way through doorways that pass into the entrances of those places we keep behind our eyelids. from this time the past seems to be so distant and the distance between minutes is relative to the feeling that you can have inside your chest when waiting seems endless. possessive hands grab at possessions marred with the marks of a maniac. ( Read more... )

I sit inside the bubble made of glass and chip away at the membrane that keeps it all together. Burrowing like bugs into useless flesh, my fingernails become a written account of something long forgotten. I am motionless. I am floating on a wave of unfamiliar yet all too typical horror. Swallow me, oh looming firmament, that I may soar amidst the ( Read more... )

Napoleon Dynamite [x ( Read more... )

so aaron and i rented "team america: world police" at rogers video.. and the guy ID'd me for it!! which really sucked, becuase i had forgotten my wallet ( Read more... )

I FIND MYSELF SITTING HERE SPINNING LIKE SOME KIND OF GYROSCOPIC MESS AND TANGLE OF PLANETARY DUST, LIKE EMOTIONS FALLING INTO PLACE, DOMINOES FINDING THEIR HOMES, MISSING GAPS IN LOGIC CREATE NICHES FOR THE WORST OF THINGS, THE BEST OF THINGS, EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING IS EVERYTHING REMEMBER? WHY DO YOU NEVER REMEMBER, I ONLY TOLD YOU YESTERDAY. OH ( Read more... )

i live in the world of three years past. i have gone back in time and all the shadows are bigger than i remembered. my collection of cuts grows and the ground shifts and everything falls over. then something decides to invade like acrid smoke, and asphyxiation hears no argument. The words have fallen as hollow shells. The empty rounds clatter ( Read more... )

lame.

lameness.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarggggggggggggghhhhhhhhh...........

today at work i managed to not cut my hands at all! yaay! a new first ( Read more... )

all i do is work and clean the house and sleep and smoke weed ( Read more... )