( long winded venting session )

I'm single again. Brian dumped me. I was so upset last night. I, uh...just don't know when he started feeling like this. I was so shocked last night, speechless, I didn't ask him about it. All of a sudden, I don't feel like writing anymore.

My room is fucking filthy and it has been for weeks, I just don't have the energy to clean it right now. I don't know why I've just been really depressed lately and I just have so much hate inside me right now. I want a fucking good cry and the tears won't come ( Read more... )

I could just scream.
At myself.
So much
Emotion.
Running wild.
Seething.
I think I'm
Going
Crazy.
Can't shake
It
Off.
Hate myself
Sometimes.
Don't
Want
To.
Can't help
It.
Feeling sorry.
Sorry for no one
But
Me.
Get Better.
Wish I could.
So hard.
To love.
Not
True
And
You
Know
It.
Why?
Where did
I go wrong?
H.E.L.P.
M.E.
P.L.E.A.S.E.

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Group projects suck, can I just tell you that. I have to work in a group in my Astronomy class...we're researching the planet Venus. Well, the preliminary powerpoint is due on Monday, and here it is, Thursday afternoon and I haven't heard from any of my group members...so I call em up and I get a hold of one of them. She's like, "Oh you weren't in ( Read more... )

So, um. I'm gonna sound like a little mooshie ooshie girlie. But Brian makes me feel so good. For the most part, aside from my family and friends...I've been ignored. I've never felt special. Unimportant. I'm not the kind of girl who needs to be with a guy at all times, but no male has ever made me feel the way he does. I love it. With him, I'm all ( Read more... )

It's me again. I'm going to the Sox game tomorrow and one thing I'm totally looking forward to is singing Sweet Caroline with everyone in the stadium. And getting to wear my Ortiz shirt AND getting to drink beers at Fenway, even though they cost an arm and a leg :)

EMERGENCY AT INFUSION NURSES SOCIETY! The toaster oven caught on fire. Smells wonderful after the smoke clears. Yummy. And the fire extinguisher dust. Wow. Never a dull moment.