man, im just boy crazy right now.

and i love every second of it!

whoohoo lets here it for being single!

you know what i find funny...

that i miss a guy i've only met once in my life more than a guy i've known for almost five years.

i felt more love in that one night than i have in the past year with that other guy...

life is crazy that way

justin...if you ever read this..this one is for you *cough*youfuckingassholeburninhell*cough* :)

"At first I was afraid, I was petrified
I kept thinkin' I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights just thinking how you've done me wrong
And I grew strong, I learned how to get alongAnd so you're back from outer space ( Read more... )

yesterday was my cousin stephanie's wedding. i didn't realize how much i needed to be around my family. its a reassuring feeling to look across the room and see cousins, aunts, and uncles. there really is no way to express it. especially since i only get to visit my family once every two years (and lately its been due to weddings). the ( Read more... )

i dont give a fuck about guys! ITS MY BIRTHDAY ( Read more... )

its my day off from work today. and im kind of wishing that i was working because with nothing to occupy my mind, i think about him. and thinking about him makes me want to cry. it makes me want to scream "WHY THE FUCK HAVEN'T YOU CALL ME!?!?!"it's weird because when you're in a relationship with someone all you want to do is be together, and ( Read more... )

summer=relaxation, right? apparently not for me. im stuck with a whole new set of conflicts and i just don't know what to do with myself anymore. i feel like im always irritated and never get enough sleep. there is always a problem and never enough money. fuck.

i just took my last test at fresno city college and i would be lying if i said that i wasn't thrilled about it. i have been anticipating this day for months (more like when i started city 3 years ago..hahah) and it just finally hit me that im done. now off to shittier and more intense colleges. yes. here's to a life of stress and thousands of ( Read more... )

my head hurts and i feel like a "bad kid" even though i haven't done anything wrong. unless you call washing your dog a crime these days. im sorry if your stressed, but please, don't take it out on me. no wonder i don't live here anymore. i can't put up with all this negativity brining me down. fuck everyone and everything. i don't have the ( Read more... )

i haven't forgotten about you....