Well Dad went to his brother's house to spend freakin two hours with his brothers and my mom his makin such a big thing about it. Its like she wants my dad to have no connection with his family. She is so freakin annoying and she's all like when he comes back I ain't gonna talk to him.. God she is gonna mess up everything and we will begin the New ( Read more... )

Well.. I have a lot to say but I don't know how. Pretty much everything is feeling gross. I don't want to be me. I want to be someone else.. anyone! For me everything is going wrong. And I feel worthless and like I am not good enough for people. I hate feeling like this so much. If I could have one wish.. it would be to be happy.

So life is okay. I am breathing so I guess thats good. My parents are sorta buggin me but I know they have my best intrests in mind. I am feeling low, and stupid, and ugly. I think I have had my heart broken one to many times. Sometimes I wonder why I get myself into all this crap. But yeah. Parents are coming so I'll update later.

   ~Dreams~
Dreams are your desires.
But with every sunrise, they expire.
They’re hidden deep within your heart.
And in your sleep is where they start.
In my sea of dreams I swim,
Dreaming of only him.
Dreaming of him with me,
Makes me smile with glee.
In my dreams, he holds me tight,
As we gaze into the starry night.
He tells me he loves me dearly ( Read more... )

 ~I thought~
As I walked down the abandoned road,
I stared into the dark that posed as light.
The cold air blew past me, making me shiver in pain.
The memories of him came flooding back.
I thought of life when I was with him.
I thought of how my days were happier.
I thought of how easily he could put a smile upon my face.
And then I remembered how ( Read more... )

                Love is misery
I used to think our love was a blessing
That nothing was as pure.
But as the moments passed
The flame that burned with passion
Started to flicker.
Your promises were nothing
But lies you told to both of us.
In just a heartbeat you broke my trust.
I gave you my heart
But you filled it with pain
I gave you my love
But ( Read more... )

 I often wonder why God has given me the characteristics that i have or why I am the one who always messes up. But of course its not God's fault becuz no matter how much i blame him there never will be any fault in God or he wouldnt be God. Its our own fault for giving into Satan. We're the ones who fall into his trap. You see the problem with ( Read more... )

Ok so right now i am at this thing with priya , mercia, and moses. Um its verrry hot outside.. so i came in here to check my mail. I am bored also. So anyways.. gotta go now. I am soo tired mann .. didnt go to sleep till 4 and woke up at 7.

Ok so am pretty sad right now. Found out something that i knew was going to happen right from the start. But oh well guess its all up to God now.

Mann i hate shopping!! And highschool clothes means shop till ya drop.. literally! So i have been to bunches of stores and have bought nice clothes. But i still have to shop some more. And i still have to make angela something for her birthday which is like oo now! And gotta make Becca something for our traditonal random gift thing. Anyways i am ( Read more... )