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Big. Fucking. Apple.
Yes, that's right, I'm in New York City. A lot has changed obviously since last I posted. I ended up trying to kill myself a few times, I had already gotten rid of my guns so I tried pills in like, November 2015, then again in July 2016, then I spent a week and a half in a mental hospital, then two days after getting out in early August 2016 I ( Read more... ) -
Komm, Süsser Tod
Yesterday I had a doctors appointment at the VA, and before I was able to go, I spent an hour just sitting in bed holding a gun in my hands and trying to convince myself that I shouldn't use it to paint the walls with my brains. Obviously, I succeeded. Barely. I'm going to give all my guns to Brandon to hold onto for a while. Right now I still care ( Read more... ) -
fuck off fuck off fuck off
Today was better for the most part. Woke up at noon. Made some fried rice, started watching rebuild of Evangelion 2.0, passed out about 20 min in and slept for like, 6 hours. Started putting together a playlist of jazz music to load onto my tablet for when I do uber driving. Speaking of uber driving, out of the 6 fares I had the one day i've done ( Read more... ) -
Mind the gap
I have my own apartment now. Amy was going to move out and I was going to keep the house but I wasn't able to find a roommate for quite some time, and we both agreed that it was probably time to get realistic and just have her keep the house, since she can afford it on her own, and have me move out. So that's what happened. I moved out, I got a ( Read more... ) -
UPDATE
I probably don't need to say "update" these are all updates, lol. Whatever.
I'm feeling better than I was a week ago, obviously. Actually this week has been one of the best i've had in a WHILE, and it's all thanks to a certain special someone. :) <3 :) <3 :) <3 ( Read more... ) -
On second thought, i'll be fine...
Any day that I don't kill myself is a good day, I suppose ( Read more... ) -
Arizona Roll
So I've been neglecting my journal lately, which is bad because if ever there was a time that I needed it, it's now. I have been pretty busy lately though. So lets get caught up, shall we? Amy and I are done. I mean, we've been done but we are really done. We have started filling out all the divorce paperwork and she's looking at apartments online ( Read more... ) -
Wind Fish
Ok... been a few days, sorry about that. Kind of a lot has happened? But, kind of also not really. So Friday, Amy and I met up with Anna and Logan for breakfast at this place in Phoenix called "Snooze: an A.M. Eatery" and it was kind of adorable, and the food was amazing, and not too pricey either! I had like this eggs benedict kind of looking ( Read more... ) -
Today is a great day :)
The subject of today's entry was the oh-so-cryptic post I made on facebook today, without explanation, and surprisingly, quite a few people seemed to just be happy enough knowing that it was great without even knowing why! I find that kind of beautiful. I don't know why, I just do. Something about the power of positive thinking or something, lol. ( Read more... )