ok, so it's definitely been 5 months since i wrote in this thing.  wow.  so much has changed.  definitely single again lol.  going to the movies today yay!  and the nick name of mudd has only been used like.... 2 times in the past month?  lol.  sheed is more common now thanx to chrispy.  summer's been good.   but honestly, who actually reads these ( Read more... )

ok, very slowly getting used to the medicine... this is going to take a while.  thanks everyone for putting up with my mood swings and all that sht.  i can barely stand myself, i love u guys for putting up with me.  :-D

so, i've been sick since thanksgiving break.  when i went to florida i got the stomach flu... well, it started getting better, but then on christmas it got dramatically worse.  then, a few days later i had a panic attack, and everything just went down hill from there.  i was sensative to temperature, and any extreme emotions made me get sick.  so, ( Read more... )

--You remember the original cast of All That, and watched Kenan and Kel
--Clarissa explains it all. enough said.
--You remember the beloved popsicle stick, Stick Stickly, and Gumby.
--You know that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"
--You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"
--You remember Captain Planet and the song.
--You ( Read more... )

its a new year.  its like... a new sheet of paper is in front of you.  it really gets you thinking... what mistakes did i make that i wont make this year, what wonderful things did i do that i hope to do again.  how careless have i been?  how careful have i been?  i just watched titanic.  and i've never cried during that movie... until now ( Read more... )

• Dance Classes
• Liked Brandon
• Ice Skating
• Bought My own cell phone
• Quit Music Lessons

cant i just feel 100% better and be done with it?  and hate the whole recovery thing lol.  i just wanna feel better.  :-D

well, i know what it feels like to have a panic attack and have everyone think you're going to die.  no more vault, ever.  it isn't happening.  i had a heart beat of 156bpm and i was just sitting here.  and i was shaking uncontrollably and felt like i was going to get sick.  my parents weren't home and weren't answering their phones.  so i had the ( Read more... )

i hate being sick. i hate knowing whats wrong and not being able to fix it/ not wanting to do what i have to do to fix it. i hate that medicine wont fix it. i hate that im 16 right now, cuz that's not helping me much. i hate that im missing ford feild because of this. i hate that im hungry and i eat and it gets worse. i hate that i really need to ( Read more... )

have you ever needed to talk to someone so much that you just knew you wouldn't be happy until you talked to them?

has something ever been missing in your life and you know its missing, but you can't figure out what it is?

have you ever been so happy you just want to cry?

have you ever been so in love that you dont want to look at another person the ( Read more... )