So, the last few days of January I was dreading February. I figured I would be miserable up through Valentines day and miserable afterwards. Well, I was miserable the past week, but not because of things in my life, because SC decided it was going to have a week of winter and be freezing cold. Granted we didn't get snow like home, but really I was ( Read more... )

So, time for crazy happy entry. It's funny how putting things into perspective can completely change things for you. Just taking a step back and viewing your life from the objective point of view. (God this bring to mind philosophy, shit, I just realized I have a paper due for that class tomorrow, dammit!) lol. Anyway, just giving some space to the ( Read more... )

Things have just been so strange lately. I'm not even sure what all is going on. It's just been a bit overwhelming. I've just been thinking about so much stuff lately... I literally have spent the past two days in my bed. I just haven't felt motivated to move or do anything. I just feel like I'm stuck between questions I'm not allowed to ask and ( Read more... )

So, I had work again yesterday. It was definitely a boring night. Hardly anyone answered their phones for the first hour and a half, and then after that everyone just said no. Oh well, it was the college of arts and sciences, they never give money, plus it was the last decade of graduates, so they're still all stingy with their money. It's really ( Read more... )

"This is what its like falling out of love ( Read more... )

I had to wake up far to early today. We had lacrosse games in Georgia today, at UGA in Athens. It's about a 3 hour drive from campus, so we met around 5:45 this morning. My body isn't happy at 5:45 to say the least. Anyway, we ended up doing pretty well overall for the day. We lost to Georgia but beat Bama (Alabama). Our goalie from last semester ( Read more... )

So this weekend has been about as boring as it could possibly be. Granted, I never really searched out to find anything very exciting to do. And I did end up doing some stuff, just no crazy partying or being out all hours of the night, which is really probably a good thing. My sleep schedule will be thanking me come classes on monday. Anyway, ( Read more... )

I wish I knew what I did that was so horrible and terrible. I wish that I knew whatever it is that they know. I just wish I had the answers to put my life back into place. Sometimes I don't even know whats worth it anymore. How much of the storm do you weather until you finally decide to go find shelter somewhere. I wish that I could find shelter ( Read more... )

Why do I just have this overwhelming feeling that something bad is going to happen. It started as just this little annoyance, and now it's really starting to bother me. It has my whole stomach twisted in a big knot. I don't even relly know what I think will happen, just something bad. I don't know with who, or where, or when. But it will be bad. I ( Read more... )

I've realized latly that I am at a very strange phase in my life. I definitely feel like I'm in that place I was after middle school and at the beginning of high school. I'm just trying to find my place with everyone and everything and at the same time find and internal balance in myself. I need to pull myself together and quick. I've been slacking ( Read more... )