Wow, I definitely need to chill the fuck out. Overnight I've become this stupid girl again. *slaps some sense into self* Sometimes I just slip and forget the person that I can really be. I've been slipping a lot lately actually, but now I'm going to try and hold on a little tighter. I forget how hard that it can be when all the "stupid girl" ( Read more... )

Oh, how I love when people get all self-righteous about thing that have absolutely nothing to do with them. I find it quite amusing and entertaining. But anyway, onto more important subject matter. Today I had a preseason lacrosse game. It was in Greenville, SC against Clemson. We actually won, which was nice. It brings some confidence to our team ( Read more... )

Ugh.. so today is just a bad day. Nothing bad has happend, nothing is probably going to happen, but just the day itself inherently makes me sad. Call me stupid of silly, it makes no difference to me. I guess it goes back to the thing my mom, melissa and i were talking about how just certain dates and such get to you in a way that makes you think, ( Read more... )

I hate that everytime I see Eric we end up fighting. I realize a million people will say that this is natural since we broke up and aren't over everything yet. I mean, I've pretty much come to terms with the fact that we aren't getting back together, but it's still hard to hear and know he's with someone else. And I realize that isn't fair for me ( Read more... )

Well, so after my last real entry that was very long and depressing, I figured I should continue in the epic tale of my life. It's funny how life isn't merely a comedy or a tragedy but is composed of the best and worst of both. I guess you could say things are looking up. My heart still breaks a little each day, but I suppose as Pink Floyd says, I ( Read more... )

A- Available?: i suppose i am ( Read more... )

Ever get to a point where you realize you just can't handle it anymore. Can't handle where you are and what you've become. You're just stuck in a downward spiral heading towards a destination that you have no control over. Somewhere between the Graduation Party page and the Everyone get Leid party page it hit me. Those days really are over. There ( Read more... )

Oh beautiful SC days how I love thee. It's so crazy to just be able to walk outside no coat or anything. I love it. I played tennis yesterday with Danny, one of the 6th floor guys. I'm terrible at tennis. At least he wasn't too much better, so I didn't feel too bad about sucking. It's kinda weird how things change though. I dunno, maybe it's just ( Read more... )

So last night Eric and I talked for a long while. It definitely is the end all of us as anything more than friends. I'm not going to lie and say it didn't hurt. It hurt a lot. But hopefully things can get better from here. He's definitely someone I want to keep as a part of my life. I think it would be nearly impossible not to. But I just want him ( Read more... )

So last night was the worse trip to SC in the history of SC trips. It ended up taking about 16 hours to get here, which is way longer than it should have obviosuly. Eric's car decided to start making very strange noises as a rest stop and ended up not restarting at all in bumfuck NC. Ironically it was where his car broke down last time on the way ( Read more... )