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and i wake up - determined as ever to run away.
i am applying for research assistant positions in ethiopia and libera, a teaching job in micronesia.
i am going to rip out of my own skin.
i don't know what the fuck else i'm supposed to be doing.

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all i want to do right now is scream, DON'T LEAVE ME. i know your bus ticket is at 7:30, and i know you have class, and i know, i know, i know, but what am i supposed to be without you here?

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The unemployment rate for young Americans has exploded to 52.2 percent -- a post-World War II high, according to the Labor Dept. -- meaning millions of Americans are staring at the likelihood that their lifetime earning potential will be diminished and, combined with the predicted slow economic recovery, their transition into productive ( Read more... )

Things I like to do after a 14-hour day:
-Lay on the couch
-Drink beer
-Read poetry

I don't have many words anymore, but I figured I'd give a shout-out after a month of radio silence.
Watch this space, outer space, any space for once I find words and a chance to breathe.
Things range from heart-wrenching in the third degree (twice removed) to just plain good.

Oh rainy-eyed girl with wine-stained mouth:
you are best at being sad.
But somewhere between
Salaam Bombay, late night frozen yogurt,
mixed drinks and French novellas,
remember:
familiarity is never an excuse, and
it's okay to allow happiness.


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I have a history of sleep deprivation: depression won't let me sleep; mania keeps me awake ( Read more... )

Why do I turn a heart breaking into violent words against myself?


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