The things that tear us apart. Tear us apart from the inside out. They're these small tiny things that we never bother with until like a monstrous cancer has built up and it's too late to back down. The things we try so very hard to accomplish. They keep us going. They're so high up you concentrate so very much to make sure everything you have done ( Read more... )

I'm back home.

And two awesome people picked me up from the port. Geoff and Leah. Then instead of chillin in my place, I ended up showering and cuddling up with Leah. She liked all the stuff I got for her which was a great plus. And my champagne angel did her own shopping. She got these awesome bowls that had imprints of sakuras. And it was very ( Read more... )

My best friend needs to remember not everyone can read his mind. Not everyone is going to approach a random stranger and expect to be liked. When I first met him, he was all giggly and silly. He had wit. Now he's just being stupid and ignorant. I know his grandmother passing away changed him dramatically. But he's stronger than that. And yeah, I do ( Read more... )

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So on thursday, Nicole, Akemee and Melissa's friend who came to go clubbin with us, got kicked out for passin a marker to some random stranger. Great.

To top it off.. Michael now works in Marcellas because apperantly its one of the easiest ways for him to see me since I won't return phone calls or talk to him. So my stalker took a fulltime job as a ( Read more... )

I feel like I haven't talked to Felipers in like forever and a day. Most of the time he's chillin with the 21+ kids down at the bar. And it sucks. It's been like two weeks since we really hung out. Minus Josh who I haven't really spoken to for another good load. And it pisses me off when I put stuff off.. I mean I'm suppose to be arranging my ( Read more... )

Yup yup.

My Lj's in construction.. you won't be blinded for long.

Most of the stuff I want to talk about are usually in my paper journal. But just wanted to share this to everyone: Tomorrow, I'm posing naked for Jacque with Felipe.. and Shan wants to draw my hair and eyes too.. *nod*.. and I told this to Leah while she was at her softball game and ( Read more... )

So I'm 19. And it sucks. Well it doesn't suck suck, but 18 was a great year.. I think. When I turned 18 I had a shitty bday, cause I was sick to my stomach thinkn about who the fuck Katie was screwin behind my back and I was way too weak to smile. Then after few suicidal attempts and rehab and pills, I picked myself up and sent a big fuck you to ( Read more... )

For some reason I like hearing that. Whenever I'd be makin out with someone or anything else, they'd smile at me and go like: "I smell like you." And nod. Every single fuckn time. I always ask if it's a bad smell and they shake their heads and say hell no. ::giddiness::

So what was the last entry.. ::flips back:: ::skims:: Ah yeah. So no more Jamie ( Read more... )

You just can't fuckin win with em.

You can't. You can't ::shrieks:: You can't.

Anyway, NYC was fun, I hung out with myAlfie and his cousin. She was nice enough to make me walk blocks for the coolest store in the world: Yellow Rat Bastard. Fuck me. It was the awesomest awesome shop in the awesomest part of the world. ::grin:: Then I flew in and they ( Read more... )