So I worry. So I tend to make them number one. I seem to cripple myself. I talk and only expect the best. I expect so much only to settle for the second best thing. I choke on my own hopes. I melt. I fall. Drive me down to hate. Drive me down to lose faith. Drive me to give up. I'm a global travesty. I always want to be somewhere else. I always ( Read more... )

Love was never supposed to be easy. That's what seperates it from fucking around. Or flirting or stupid little random fun.

Love is all about compromise and willing to go against bullshit because the relationship and the other person is worth. And when it isn't, it isn't love. There isn't love. And with all that I am, I would be willing to, if I ( Read more... )

The people that touch your life.. you'll never know. You'll never know who's true or not-so-worth it.. and sometimes you think you've got it, but you don't. Something else pops out and surprises you. You think you've got someone who loves you.. then things change. You think someone's a total asshole, but they become your savior ( Read more... )

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Ok I'm supposed to be doing work but I'm eh lacking the will to. This day's pretty interesting. Set the alarm for 7 and didn't wake up til 11 or something. Woke up and Leah and I missed our classes and surprisingly enough we just layed there and made out and it was the most amazing thing. I mean yeah four months- pretty short. But pretty long ( Read more... )

So it was Shan's bday on Tuesday.. got her a puzzle and everything. and decided to go out bar hopping yesterday. I feel like shit cause i'm 19 and this is Buffalo. This isn't like Kuwait where I know everyone. I didn't grow up here. Nor am I a big fan of kissing ass to get in places. I always had people come up to me and go like.. yeah i know you ( Read more... )

Let me be an asshole for a moment. Well, a livejournal moment.

If I was on a sinking ship. I'm heading for the lifeboat first. I don't need anything behind my back.

Forget your jewelry or any of your possessions. Sooner or later someone's going to steal it away anyway. And even if you do manage to take it with you. Your soul wouldn't die of ( Read more... )

You ever look at someone everyday and you say how cute and pretty they are.. then you fall asleep with them and while you're doing that you're just watching them. And as hyper, crazy, scared, angry or whatever extreme emotion you might be feeling ... while you're watching them fall asleep, your armor slowly comes apart on its own. And it's like.. ( Read more... )

So yay. Being busy sucks. I regret my two weeks of freedom from GEO103, cause now I have an exam and I dont have much time to study. Nor do I have the willingness to. I was supposed to study with Omar but I'm not too hot on the idea. I just want to get this stuff done then I can go off and ask him the questions I need. Blah. Whatever.

Mmm. Stuff ( Read more... )

And its gone... gone... going ( Read more... )