just when you think you're happy something happens to take it away. the decision i have to make is life altering. it effects everyone, not just me. and i have no idea what to do. i'm so lost. i'm so confused. i love him, but this changes everything...what do i do?? i think i know what the "right" thing to do is, but i don't want to do it. i keep ( Read more... )

i've been doing ok...adel has called me at least once everyday. :) i've never waited for someone's phone call the way i wait for his. it's insane. and if he doesn't call then i get all sad...this is pathetic. i fell too hard. and i feel that i'm going to end up paying for it in the end. like it's not going to work out and i'm going to be very hurt ( Read more... )

so i had some doubts that adel liked me...i thought maybe i was just a piece of ass to him...but what he said to me today, put all doubts out of my head. i went to see him on my lunch break before his flight. and we were talking laughing, joking around like always...and he told me not to miss him too much so i jokingly said i won't i've already ( Read more... )

i knew it was going to happen. i knew the time was coming soon, but i didn't know how much it was going to hurt when it did finally come. it seems like my entire life men have been walking in making me so happy and then just leaving in one day. i'm going to miss him so much. i should have gotten used to the idea but i haven't. this is why nothing ( Read more... )

I shouldn't ever want to see you again ( Read more... )

so adel left for NY...i'm going to miss him...it's weird...i don't like him but when he's not there i miss him. i miss all of them. they gave me something to look forward to. someone else to think about. if i don't move with them i'm going to miss them a lot ( Read more... )

i will know on the 24th if i'm going to miami or not. adel has to go to new york talk to his partners and get the figures on the businesses in miami to see if it will be a good buy or not. if it is then i'm moving!! :) yay ( Read more... )

who knew you could have fun at a laundry mat at 4:30 in the morning? and with just a camera and a pot holder ( Read more... )

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq
• You must tell 7 people about this game.
• Doug is the one that you love.
• Mike is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Teddi.
• Krystle is the one who knows you very well.
• Trish is your lucky star.
• Since You've been gone is the song that matches with Doug.
• Just A Little Bit is the song for Mike.
• Candyshop is ( Read more... )

things have been a little insane lately ( Read more... )