i was reading through some old journal entries....and i had so much drama in my life!!! or perhaps there wasn't that much drama i just blew it out of proportion. (sp??) looking back on the past 2 years of my life, i've realized how far i've come. i've matured a lot. and i owe it all to the people and experiences ( Read more... )

i have a new job now. I work for Hole Montes engineering firm. I'm a administrative assistant. today's only my 3rd day!! so it's kind of boring right now. they don't give me too much work yet b/c i don't know what i'm doing. but everything they do give me is so easy, i'm done with it in 10 mins ( Read more... )

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have you ever had this burning thought in the back of your head that just won't go away? at first it's so vivid you can't ignore it, but after awhile it dies down but it still doesn't go away. and most days you're ok...but then you have those few days where it controls everything you do. you try so hard to block it out but it just won't go away. ( Read more... )

life is so fucking awesome!!! things are going exactly as i want them!!! or maybe it's just that i don't care about anything anymore. i've given up. i've come to the realization that nothing really matters....nothing i do or anyone else does matters. b.c in the end it'll all work out the way it's supposed to ( Read more... )

hm...things are a lot different now. started hanging out with paul. i hope we get to hang out more. work is going good. except the past two days b/c they have me on a register. don't really like it too much but i can't do anything about it. i need a job...and i like this one, but only when i'm in copy and print. should be getting a good paycheck ( Read more... )

hmmm...it's been a while since i've last updated. i don't really think about adel anymore....only when i listen to usher. but that was what we always listened to, so it kind of holds a sentimental value to me. i like this new guy named Stefen. he works with me. he has a girlfriend but i still can't help liking him. we flirt all the time. and ( Read more... )

why do we plan things? why do we try and work everything out so perfectly...knowing very well that something will happen to fuck it up? nothing ever goes according to plan....i thought i had my life planned out, but then shit happens to throw it off schedule..and it seems like i'll never get it back on track.....so do i just start from scratch and ( Read more... )

wow, so my past week has been pretty intresting..... i don't remember any of it. i've tried a couple new things that i used to tell myself i would never get started on, but hey who the fuck cares anymore....i sure as hell don't!!! i don't care about anything or anyone anymore....b/c it gets you know where...it doesn't matter how nice you are or ( Read more... )

well things are royally fucked up..and once again it's my fault....i don't understand why he yelled at me, but thats ok...we're talking again..but it's not the same. i feel anxious all the time..like i want to puke. my heart beats extra fast all the time...which can't really be healthy. i miss him. i miss the way he talked to me. he says he's till ( Read more... )