"At first kiss I felt something melt inside me that hurt in an exquisite way. All my longings, all my dreams and sweet anguish, all the secrets that slept deep within me came awake, everything was transformed and enchanted, everything made sense."

I want to take all of the words you were too afraid to say and paint them. Put the letters onto signs and stick them in your yard. I want to admit what you feared, loud and clear, and watch while the world doesn't fall.

"I fell in love with you...that is all."

Someday I am going to show up on your doorstep, two tickets in hand. I will remind you that you said you would come along with me. "You've got one day to get your shit together and then we're out of here for a week." You'll shrug and tell your job there's not a lot you can do. You see, a promise is a promise and who really knows how long anything ( Read more... )

Early this morning I woke up with a ripping pain in my stomach. I got up and made a few rounds from the bedroom to the kitchen, looking first for water, then for painkillers, and finally for the simple relief that walking seemed to provide. All the while my poor boyfriend was gently suggesting I take my pacing outside, not by his words but because ( Read more... )

I forgot you were coming back. Waiting here in the grass, I brought my knees up to my cheeks and took for granted the bluest sky we've seen in a hundred days' time. Everything's faded now, of course. I couldn't keep it brightly lit for you. Sitting here somedays I think I'm losing my mind...listening to the wind and the trees and unseen noises with ( Read more... )

"Let me tell you something little girl, you have nothing to prove to me. I am not someone you should look up to. I am not someone that you should fear. I am a girl, like you. I get scared like you do. And I do all the things wrong that you do. I forget myself in the whir of life and relationships; and sometimes I mistreat my loved ones as a result ( Read more... )

One of the beautiful things about meeting someone new, someone you really LIKE - be it a lover, a friend, or a mentor; is the way that they instantly open up in you the willingness to embrace qualities of yourself that you hadn't before. Suddenly empowered by the enthusiasm of another person, you cease to see the world as a place overburdened with ( Read more... )

It was almost as if in the space of ten minutes you forgot I was there. Oblivious and calm you were instantly wrapped in a sleep so deep that your snores would wake the dead. But not you. No. You laid there still and weighty like a numb limb. It's as though you couldn't feel my lap which you had confiscated for cuddling and had absolutely no regard ( Read more... )

"Well it seems like it could happen and you could walk away from it and just be friends with me. So it'd be like adding something to our relationship, without losing anything else. But it might not be like that for me."

I guess I deserve this. I've known better all along.

So. Here I am…thinking of you. An old maid sipping a coke laced with nostalgia (and I’ll admit, a bit of rum) watching a picture show on the blank computer screen in front of her. You don’t remember me anymore I’m sure...your story disembarked from our story many years in the past. Doubtless you are now living another conjoined tale, complete with ( Read more... )