what a fascinating time to be alive. the winds (literal and figurative) are changing and that for sure adds to my uncertainty of the future. things for the last several months have been weird, intense, revolutionary, evolutionary, introspective, unexpected, not entirely good, yet not entirely bad. one thing is clear though...there is something ( Read more... )

i wish things weren't so chaotic right now. i wish i could tell myself that someday i'll be able to believe myself again. that someday i'll be able to trust again, that someday i might fall in love again. so much has happened and un-happened in the last two months that it would be a waste of energy to attempt to recap. what i do know is that i' ( Read more... )

how can i be...

...having one of my best summers

and having one of my worst summers...

.simultaneously?.

...the one thing that i can say with absoulte certainty is...

it's been a long time since i felt this beautiful.

i was listening to a very corny radio show the other night and realized what may explain a large part of my confusion and awkwardness with the stage of life i am at currently. i'm coming to terms with the fact that my parents, although they will always be my mother and father, are actually real people with imperfections, thoughts, failures, hopes ( Read more... )

today everything makes me sad. today i tried to watch television to try to distract my mind, and i was appalled that a show that explains how the cream filling gets in the middle of twinkies actually made cable television. i tried to read the news to learn about lives which are sadder than i am, and i got frustrated because i found i didn't ( Read more... )

i haven't wrote in here forever.  i forget it existed.  i've been very busy being lazy lately.

i didn't realize how much i would miss phish.  when trey announced the last show would be coventry, i felt sad but strangely at peace, thinking that it would be the catalyst for me to bid my youth farewell and start on my journey of being a grown up.  i ( Read more... )

i'll be going down the street to laco's soon enough. should be an interesting time, as always. and i can't forget to bring the big old hippie man his canned food donations before he wags his finger at me for another night. sheez ( Read more... )

*on weekends, the strange man downstairs has his strange girlfriend over and they spend a lot of time in their bathroom, giggling. i can hear them through the vents in my bathroom ( Read more... )

+ you know those people who, no matter what story or experience someone has to share, their story or experience is 10 x bigger and better than anyone's, ever? i know you do...not only that, but throw in the characteristics of "holier than thou" and extreme criticism? even better, toss in a glorifed view of violence and gore and the belief that ( Read more... )