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[patcheofthepath]

"Fuck you, I never want to see your face or hear your voice again you stinking fucking piece of shit" would have hurt a lot less. Damn. That sounds angry, but I'm not. Just horribly distraught. I don't know what I'm going to do. Actually thats a lie. I'm going to do nothing. I'm probably going to quit doing drugs because of this weekend,

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[twistdfairychld]

I'm so sorry Tom. I don't know what to say or how to even begin trying to make you feel better. I know that nothing I can will. And last night was really hard for the both of us. I love you more than I could possibly say and that scares the everliving shit out of me. I understand that I'm asking a lot of you and I apologize, but I don't know how else to do it. I think this is the only way to save both of us, yet its hurting you in a way that I will most likely never understand. Please forgive me. Everything will be ok I promise. I just don'tknow when yet...<3 Bex

[patcheofthepath]

no, becky. it won't. not this time. something, i don't know what, but something has gone horribly wrong inside of me, so much has happened this weekend, you don't even know the half of it. shit is still happening. i simply don't know what to do. all i know is, every time i think of you, every time i see your face, or your picture, or hear your voice... or smell your hair. i fucking cry. and i hate it. what am i supposed to do? huh? love you for years on end, hoping you won't just fall in love with some guy your senior year and get fucking married. how the FUCK do i know?! I FUCKING DON'T!

[patcheofthepath]

nothing will ever be ok. i can't fucking handle this shit. all i thought about on the busride down there was how i was goign to get to see you, and that at least while we were together you'd be mine again, and thats exactly the impression you gave me, and then, eh, nevermind, sorry. WELL SORRY DOESNT FUCKING CUT IT

[patcheofthepath]

yea, i know, i did some fucked up shit in the past. well, if this is your way of veangance, good fucking job.only we survived what happened in the past, you really think we can just keep fucking dealing with more and more shit? cause me, i really fucking doubt it.you say it's gonna be a few years, what you don't realize is that for some reason, you fucking prevent me from truly caring about anyone else, so i really have to fucking wait. i try and be with other people, and i only end up thinking about you. i wish i could hate your fucking guts.